As I was in the car with my dad this past night, going home from Connect Groups, I couldn’t help noticing the rain. Of course, it’s Washington, so it seems kinda odd that I would notice it just then, huh?

Nope.

I was listening to “How He Loves,” by John Mark McMillan.

“How He loves us, oh how He loves us, oh how He loves us, oh how He loves…”

I don’t think we can ever fathom God’s love for us as individuals, as a body, as his creation. But we can find little bits here and there that represent his love toward us. I was just thinking… the rain hits anything and everything. It doesn’t matter who is in the car, doesn’t matter what kind of car, or the brand either. Just like that, God loves us no matter who we are, what we look like, what we’re stereotyped as. When we go through life on the road, we must never forget that God’s love is right in front of our faces. We might try wiping it off our windshield, but there’s just more coming; His love for us is unconditional, it’s infinite.

Well, there’s something I just thought I might share. God bless!

The title of this blog is really what I’ve been thinking over and over in my head. This huge and important topic of humility has really captured my mind, and it’s been helping me to be patient and to simply love others for who they are.

To be humble, in the world, is defined as…

1 : not proud or haughty : not arrogant or assertive
2 : reflecting, expressing, or offered in a spirit of deference or submission
3 a : ranking low in a hierarchy or scale : insignificant, unpretentious b : not costly or luxurious
(taken from the Merriam-Webster’s Online Dictionary)

The Bible also adds…

“For whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted.”
Matthew 23:12

When I look around at church, at school, [especially] at the YMCA, I see people who are better than me; whether a better Christian, a better student, or a stronger person, they’re all better than me. I can’t help but to be jealous at times.

The thought that comes into my mind is “Why can’t I be like them?” or something even more far-fetched, “Why can’t I be the best?” When I started to truly realize the questions I was asking myself, I stopped myself and evaluated my thoughts.

“Why do I want to be the best at everything?”
Complex answer, short version: I want to be able to be proud of myself.

And therein lies the problem. At least for me, I wanted (and sometimes continue to want) to be the best simply for my own personal desires. I’m being greedy; I’m being selfish and jealous. Humility is laying your own desires, your wants, your life behind the wants and needs of others. Humility is letting others go first in a line at a buffet. Humility is giving time to the needy and hungry. Humility exalts one higher than other great worldly accomplishments. Now don’t get me wrong, of course worldly accomplishments are awesome too, but in God’s eyes, it’s really what you do for others, not for yourself.

James Kim (10th grader) once put his Facebook status as:
“humbleness. putting others before yourself.”
You know that “humbleness” is not a word, but you get the main picture.

I won’t talk about what specifically James said during our Connect Group (remember the rule about what is said in the group, stays in the group?) but the incident was rather insignificant compared to bigger situations. But that single decision he made, that “Okay, I’ll do it your way,” made a difference.

Whenever you read this blog entry, I want you to try being humble at least once that week. Being humble comes in the smallest ways; you can allow people to sit in the passenger seat when there are multiple people, you can help a person struggling in school, etc. But being humble comes with the biggest rewards; God is happy with you, and when He’s happy, you’re happy. :)

How many people can say that God is happy with them? But I know, that when we do humble acts, just as Christ came down to serve us, God looks down on us and smiles.

Just think about it.

PEACE.

This word is so versatile, and by that I mean by its meanings. Peace has been symbolized by a dove, a V-shape with your fingers, etc. If I were to ask several people what “peace” was to them, their responses would probably be “music” or “no fighting” or “silence.” And to be honest, my answer would probably all three of those, as well. Sadly, if we think this we’re all mistakened. We can’t turn to worldly things for peace… possibly temporary peace, but eternal peace is far from the world. I’ve sought peace everywhere and if I [thought I] did, it’s always been temporary, nothing but a leaf in the wind that flies away quickly. Countless times I’ve been disappointed from the end result, that life is just the same as before, busy and cold-hearted with a few good events here and there. When I lie down on my bed at night, and I think I’ve found “peace” in the silence and darkness, something always pops up. Doesn’t matter what I do, maybe I start to think of the next day, or my phone vibrates. I’ve never found true peace.

Until today. This morning, I woke up at 5:50 AM, took my Living Life QT book (which I haven’t done in a very, very long time honestly), and opened it. I read the passage, which was Isaiah 57:11-21, and something hit me. I wasn’t tired. I know this doesn’t really have anything to do with the actual passage itself, but it was amazing. Especially after having Spring Break, and being a Monday, AND waking up earlier than I normally do, I believe it was God. As I said before, I haven’t done my QT’s in a long time. The fact that I wasn’t tired in the morning rang through my head the entire day; I even remember telling my mom after school that I wasn’t tired when I did my QT. Going back to the actual passage, some parts of it stuck out to me. Here are verses 16-21:

“… 16 I will not accuse forever, nor will I always be angry, for then the spirit of man would grow faint before me–the breath of man that I have created. 17 I was engraged by his sinful greed; I punished him, and hid my face in anger, yet he kept on in his willful ways. 18 I have seen his ways, but I will heal him; I will guide him and restore comfort to him, 19 creating praise on the lips of the mourners in Israel. Peace, peace, to those far and near,” says the Lord. “And I will heal them.” 20 But the wicked are like the tossing sea, which cannot rest, whose waves cast up mire and mud. “There is no peace,” says my God, “for the wicked.”

This passage struck me hard. I’ve gone to music, to people, to everything to find peace, when it was right in front of me. GOD IS PEACE. I can’t stress that enough. Maybe because I was at peace this morning, I was more awake. During my QT, I forgot all my worries, such as school today and our Author Dinner project. This is what I’ve been searching for all this time: God. I can never forget that He’s the one and only that can give me eternal peace.

So the next time you are troubled or worried, remember this:

GOD IS PEACE.

I’m amazed at how Health class really relates to real life… I mean, of course it should, but just the things we talk about in that class really relate to life. I think it has to do with just the timing of what we learn and when I hear it, but also I’d like to say it’s also because of my teacher, Ms. Bowie. I think she’s really good at teaching and not only that, but since she’s Christian, I can relate to what she says, unlike some others. Apparently she is a leader at Alderwood Community Church (somebody correct me if the name is wrong), and is a leader for the youth group there (?).

Anyways… I really hate it how people think about sex ed when they first hear “health class.” Earlier this school year, people were asking me what I was learning in health, and before I even told them, they immediately started to guess. “Is it sex?” I answered, “NO.” I hate how this world has become so sex-oriented. Apparently my health teacher shares the same view. She talked about how commercials have now become more sexually appealing, and how commercials like those attract millions of people just watching the Superbowl. They pay millions of dollars to bring in customers. I personally think it is, in a way, a smart way to advertise, because millions of people watch the Superbowl (approx. 150 million). That doesn’t necessarily mean I like what they are doing. It’s quite the opposite. I ultimately dislike how they use sex-oriented images/videos to bring in customers. I’m not saying this is in every commercial, let alone even a half of the commercials. But my point is that some do.

Right now, we’re at the point of taking our finals for this class. After this, good-bye to health for the rest of high school (I think). But this past week has been really busy, in the sense that we were learning a lot in a short period of time. I do admit this last unit has been about sex ed, and I’ve been trying not to fall asleep in class (most people think that’s weird, because they think this is the most interesting unit, but for me, NOPE). I will also admit that I’ve failed the sex ed unit in the past two years of middle school. Funny, isn’t it? Anyways (again), we were learning about relationships; specifically building strong relationships. I thought this was very interesting, because I was thinking about my relationship with God and not about relationships with other people (the opposite sex, as you were probably thinking). I know this is just textbook stuff, but I thought it was very interesting because it really applies to life. In our health textbook, there is a picture of two people on stepping stones. Each stepping stone was its own step in a relationship. I know dating doesn’t have anything to do with our relationship with God, so I’m going past that. The next step after dating is, “DEEP FRIENDSHIP: The two people confide in, trust, and support each other. This is considered ‘going steady’.” After that, is “LIFELONG LOVE: Two people feel they can commit to each other for life…” (the rest talking about marriage).

Isn’t that how we should go with God? (Master) June talked about this during praise last Sunday, in a way. Do we know God? Or do we know about Him? It’s a tough question and I can’t find an answer even for myself. But lately, my relationship with God has been going a little downhill, so I’d go closer to the answer of about Him. Before we can truly love God, we must absolutely know Him. When we “confide in” and “trust” our God, we start to truly know Him. When we start to tell God about the shadowy parts in our lives, or to go to him and ask for support, we start to truly know Him. Of course, this is not written, but when we read the Bible and God really speaks to us, then we start to truly know Him. I’ve read the Bible, and many times, it hasn’t been a really amazing experience for me, and I’m pretty sure you haven’t, as well. I’ve had some experiences where God just simply struck my heart with his word (Psalm 46:10). When God speaks to us, reveals Himself to us, gives his Word to us, that’s when we start to truly know Him. I know I’ve used the last phrase quite a few times in this paragraph, but I’m trying to strongly portray how we get to know Him. Get the picture?

Moving on, my teacher taught us about our own relationships with people. The two words she gave to us (which will also be on our final) is “balance” and “honesty”. In her opinion, this is what our relationships and our life itself should have. The analogy she gave us for “balance” was this: You’re walking through the buffet and there are all these different types of food. You don’t only want a whole pile of mashed potatoes with gravy, but you also want to have some macaroni & cheese. You may not want to, but you need a balanced meal, so you should get some greens: salad. Not only that, but you should get a drink and after you eat everything, you get some dessert. This is the same in our lives. We not only want to make our relationship with the opposite gender (mashed potatoes with gravy) as our top priority, but we also want to have a good relationship with our family (macaroni & cheese). We also need to get some exercise (salad) and be healthy. We need to set a time for school/work (drink), as well. The dessert can be anything you love to do, such as hobbies. The main point is: we need to find a balance. She didn’t give us an analogy for “honesty”, but I’m guessing it’s pretty self explanatory. We should be honest in our relationships. How can we lie to the people we love? This honesty does not only cover lying, but our integrity in our relationships. Are we staying true to that special someone? Are we keeping ourselves pure for that special someone? Are we being truthful, keeping our morals, etc.? That’s what I believe to be honesty. This is a lot to swallow, and my fingers are tired from typing this all up, so I will type up another post later.

How had I become all three of them? Read on.

This actually happened to me barely three weeks ago. I felt like my world was falling apart… I didn’t have just a lot of homework, but problems such as partners at school, really deciding who my true friends are, etc. My mind was just a messed-up, confusing puzzle. It felt like my mind was simply everywhere, trying to cope with all these types of things. I remember our health teacher (Ms. Bowie) talking about mental strength near the beginning of the school year; she said that to be mentally well is to be able to cope with daily activities. At that point, I thought that was just a bunch of information I didn’t know, because I felt fine. I didn’t feel busy, I didn’t feel overwhelmed, but apparently, I was oblivious and naive towards what was going to happen in the future.

It all started with English Honors. I thought I had that class all under control, but because I was foolish, I didn’t use my time wisely. I didn’t prioritize the things in my life. Even though I knew the dangers of procrastinating and putting things to the last SECOND (note that I didn’t use minute), I continued to just push off my projects that were due a little later. After the retreat, I finally noticed that I should have at least done some work for my Travel Log (a project assigned almost a month before the retreat). And yet I still kept it off until the last week. Sad, isn’t it? I can’t believe I still did that. I was so foolish to not use my time to the best of my ability.

As the school week continued on, my friend told me that I should start working on my project. I knew he was just trying to help, but by that time, I had become a fool, a mocker, a scoffer. I chose to plainly not listen to my friend and instead, made fun of him because he used up all of his free time to finish the “stupid project” (as I remember I put it). I continued to do so until I felt the actual and real urgency of my situation. I could’ve smacked myself in the face as hard as I could, but I just didn’t want to hurt myself physically when I was already mentally… not-sound. So what did I do? I started to freak out, panic, and NOT go to God. I chose to follow the path of panic instead of following the path of peace, which was simply God.

Here’s the general meaning of this experience: I wasn’t being wise.

Notice all the italicized words? Do they spark something in your head? They were all used in PM’s sermons in this last month of January. And I couldn’t believe how hard they hit me. Every single type of person: the naive, the fool, the scoffer… I had become all of them. How could this have happened? After hearing yesterday’s message, I was amazed at how God had been speaking to me through all the sermons, and yet I was oblivious to all that He had to say for me. It is so true when people say that God always speaks, yet it’s us that aren’t listening. After this experience, I’ve chosen to open my ears, mind, and heart wider to hear what God has in store for me.

I also wanted to say that when I became all three of those, God saved me. It wasn’t just a simple good feeling, it was peace. I can’t really describe it as anything else. How could I? When you truly feel God near you, what more can you say or do? I get these daily verses through text from Spirit 105.3 and this is how God spoke to me. This was 2 days before the entire project was due, and because of partner complications, I was supposed to finish all the project by myself. I felt like I couldn’t handle much more and I really just wanted to not care anymore. I wanted to just leave the project and I didn’t care if I got a bad grade or not. But here’s what the text said:

Psalm 46:10a – “Be still, and know that I am God.”

I was speechless.

My almighty God, my loving Father, the friend that’s always been there for me, talked to me through text. I thought that was amazing. THE God. THE King. THE Lord. It wasn’t just luck, it wasn’t coincidence, it was God. At that moment, I sighed. It was such a relief, that even after I had turned into the naive, the fool, and the scoffer, and then after I started to panic and freak out, God still looked after me. I can’t thank God enough for that simple text message.

Thanks be to God.

Show GLO means show God’s Love Overflow.

Just wanted to clear that up.

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